If I Could Turn Back Time And See My Baby Again……..

 

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I Would……………….

Look up to the Heavens and thank the Lord, for you are fearfully and wonderfully made, from your beautiful violet eyes to your precious little fingers,
And I would pray much harder for a miracle, again and again I would cry out to God to let you live, and I would not stop; I would let this prayer linger.
And I would squeeze you a little tighter, and give you one more kiss on the cheek,
My little Ariana, so strong and energetic in the womb, now your body feels completely weak.

I Would…………….

Hold you tightly once more, and memorize each and every feature, from the length of your eyelashes to the wave of your hair,
And I would have more pictures taken, especially of me holding you; but I was so busy taking mental snapshots, that I didn’t seem to care.
I would notice the exact size of your feet, the shape of your toes, and the softness of your baby skin,
Never did I imagine this tragedy would happen, for it is a reminder of the devastation of original sin.

I Would………………….

Have written a poem just for you, and read it to you silently with your head against my chest,
And I would have pretended that you were going to fall asleep to the words, as I try to finish without weeping……..but failing that test.
When they put that tiny outfit on you, I would have said out loud, “You are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, so pretty in pink,”
And though you could not hear me, I would have meant every word; you were so adorable to gaze upon, that I didn’t even want to blink.

I Would…………………….

Have opened up the Bible, gleaning from the text while seeking comfort from its pages,
Or perhaps learned for the first time, that your death was the result of Adam’s sinful wages.
Or maybe even learned that there was a Second Adam, the One who died to give us life and bring us a certain expectation,
That there is a Day coming, Ariana, when you and I will together gaze upon Him, on the New Heaven and New Earth, in complete adoration.

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Baby Girl, Daddy Will Never Forget You!

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As the days continually go by, I often think of you and I try not to cry,
You’re more beautiful than the sun lighting up the clear blue sky,
I miss you dearly baby girl, I never wanted to bid you farewell,
But I know you’re safe in the hands of Jesus, for in Heaven you dwell.

As the days go by, I wish our time together had been longer,
Every moment that passes, my love for you grows stronger and stronger,
For those moments we shared are with me now and forever,
Daddy won’t forget you, Ariana, you are a precious treasure.

It’s hard for me to understand, why you had to leave so fast,
There are times I get so depressed, thinking about the past,
It’s been over 14 years since your passing, but seems like yesterday,
Oh how I love and miss you, I so wanted you to stay!

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I often wonder, what would you look like today, baby girl?
How tall would you be?  Would your hair have a curl?
What does it sound like when you talk, and how big are your smiles?
I know one thing for sure: my love for you reaches for miles and miles.

As the days go by, I remember you as clearly as this very day,
From my mind and my heart, your beauty and innocence will never fade away,
Forgive me, little one, if Daddy happens to shed a few tears,
It’s only because I love you, and I’ve missed all of your childhood years.

As I think back on when you were born, Ariana, I’m overcome with such emotion,
My thoughts of you seem endless, as if more than many rain drops hitting the ocean,
And if God would let me go back in time, I would surely hold you close once more,
But I believe I’ll see you again, and it is the Lord Jesus who can open that door.

As you reap the rewards of Heaven, in that blissful everlasting space,
Rejoice continually, baby girl, and keep that smile on your face!

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Baby Girl, You Were Taken Too Soon!

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My baby girl, Ariana, was taken too soon.  She came into the world on February 20th, 2002.  And she exited the world on the same day.  She did not take a single breath outside the womb.  Before you read this poem, you will need to read her story.  Her story is my story.  And it is gut-wrenching.  So………..to really understand the depth of these words you are about to read, you will need to know what happened on that fateful day back in 2002.

In the years following Ariana’s death, I submitted several poems about her to the local newspaper in Williamsport, Pennsylvania.  Every year on her birthday, for about 5 years in a row, I wrote a poem for Ariana to be printed in the obituaries.  At the time, these were some of the rawest, most transparent emotions I’ve ever expressed about my precious little one.  Unfortunately, I lost all the copies I had of these poems!!  And I assumed they were lost forever.  I was having a very difficult time even finding archived copies of them online.

But……..thank God for my parents!!  They save just about everything, and they were able to locate 4 of the poems!!  And who knows, the 5th one may turn up one day.  For practical reasons, I decided to condense the 4 poems into 2.  Most of the original content is preserved.  However, to help with the flow, I did have to make some structural changes with a few extra words added at times.  So here you go………this poem is quite simple: the love of a daddy for his baby girl.  A baby girl taken too soon.  A baby girl daddy misses very much.  I chose the violet colored font as a reminder of her beautiful eyes!

 

           TAKEN TOO SOON

  You are like a bright star, baby girl, to whom I wish to fly,
  The love I have for you is the source of all those tears I cry.
  Your home is with Jesus now, in the glorious Heaven above,
  That thought to me is joyful and calming, as peaceful as a dove.

   You were taken too soon, Ariana, without a minute to spare,
   I’ve often thought how all of this just seems so unfair.
   But my memories of you are real, they are just like brand new,
   My thoughts of you are heartfelt and many, this poem is a clue.

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It’s been 14 years since I lost you, my beautiful little flower,
Since that day when I first saw you, it was my finest but darkest hour,
Since the day I saw those eyes, those beautiful violet eyes,
It was a sight so dazzling, like the sun setting over the ocean skies.

Some days are harder than others, sometimes I barely get by,
Remembering how badly I wanted to hear my baby cry.
You were pretty like a rose, and as tiny as a bunny,
I wouldn’t trade the time I had with you, for no amount of money.

 

 

They told us there would be some problems, that you might not be alright,
But they were wrong, Ariana, Daddy thinks you’re outta sight!
You’re with the Lord now, and I’m not sure if He lets you look down,
But if He did, I know that your smile would be able to light an entire town.

Remembering the day I lost you, although very tragic,
When I held you in my arms, it was pure magic.
I have not forgotten you, nor will I ever,
And the time will someday come, when we will be together.

Someday I will see your adorable face, and there will finally be cause to celebrate,
For now, you’ll live in my heart’s affections, and that will forever be your fate.

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